Category: Books

  • Man’s Struggle to Hell and Back

    Man’s Struggle to Hell and Back

    A Book Review of Karl Ove Knausgaard’s The Morning Star

    This is a photo I took on a recent hike in the Sandia Mountains near Albuquerque, New Mexico. The gloomy landscape evokes the novel’s mood and setting in Norway.

    Whenever I finish reading a long novel at lightning speed, my immediate thought is that what I read was good because it held my attention so well. But maybe, having found it so hard to get back into reading after finishing my graduate degree in English literature, when I do find myself reading again, I scarf down the literature like a starving dog offered the blandest commercial pet food. Whether I was just hungering to get wrapped up in Karl Ove Knaugaard’s The Morning Star or found it genuinely and enjoyably captivating, I’m still unsure. 

    The Morning Star was an impulsive selection off the shelf at the Albuquerque Public Library. After lecturing myself about needing to read more contemporary fiction–to scratch a sociological if not literary itch to discover what people read nowadays–I thought, “Why not this?” In other words, it was an arbitrary decision. 

    I had heard of Knausgaard but had never read anything from his My Struggle autofiction series. I have no interest. Men’s autobiographical writing has never appealed to me, especially when so arrogantly titled. 

    Men’s writing in any genre doesn’t appeal to me. This statement isn’t misandrist for two reasons: First, misandry doesn’t exist, just like color blindness and racism against white people doesn’t exist. Second, general fatigue for narratives regarding a man’s struggle should have set in for all of us a while ago–it’s the rightful burden of having the most privileged and ubiquitous point of view. 

    We have been inundated with tales of men’s travails for millennia, from Odysseyus’s bachelor-esque boat-party adventure, to the passionate masochism of Christ, to Don Quixote’s windmill hunting, to Hamlet’s mopey theatrics, to Kafka’s cockroach drag . . . It’s not trite feminism to call out the Western canon of literature for being boring when we keep reproducing and glorifying the same things ad nauseam. 

    Well, “boring” isn’t exactly the right word. It’s hackneyed, and despite this, it is seductive as hell. We easily get caught up in meditations about the universal experiences that make us all human–affairs that survive the test of time and continue to shape the world and how we see ourselves. But therein lies the violence. This longstanding production of normativity has us believing that the struggle of the Eurocentric patriarch is the universal struggle. My struggle, which I hope is also our struggle, is having no place to escape this form of storytelling.

    Speaking of being seductive as hell, The Morning Star is about the seduction of hell and reveries of the afterlife. As a mysterious new star appears in the sky over Norway, one of the characters reminds us that the Bible refers to Jesus and Satan alike as the “bright morning star.” With this thought in mind, the plot ambiguously unfolds around the uncertainty of this celestial event as either a harbinger of good or evil, life or death.  

    Considering that mad people and ghosts continuously warn the living “you are doomed” throughout the novel, we might conclude that things are not so good. But Knausgaard’s point, I think, is that these binaries of light/dark, good/evil, and heaven/hell are murkily intertwined in inscrutable ambivalence–which doesn’t make it any less cliche. This point is underscored by scenes of literal or metaphorical purgatory as the dying are stuck between life and death or characters simply disappear from the text, having no more “life” in the plot while existing somewhere off the page. 

    Knausgaard doesn’t hide his philosophical and theological preoccupations from his readers. We might even say he’s heavy-handed. The final chapter of the novel is an essay, “On Death and the Dead,” by the character Egil, a middle-aged documentary filmmaker. The book’s “Credits” serve as this essay’s bibliography as much as the novel’s, citing Aristotle, Kierkegaard, Nietzsche, and a few more great Western thinkers of death and its dance with life. 

    Man has surely been long interested in death, the devil, and the afterlife. We could cite Dante’s trip to hell in the Inferno, Bosch’s depictions of earthly sins that make the world itself look like hell, and sympathy for the devil in Milton’s Paradise Lost. Lars von Trier’s recent film The House that Jack Built is an homage to depictions of hell throughout the centuries. Hell has an undeniable literary-aesthetic appeal. It’s riveting stuff, making Knausgaard’s creepy and gory intervention into this conversation enthralling. 

    Yet, stepping back for perspective after reading the last page–which could not coincidentally be page 666–I wouldn’t argue that it’s a unique or necessary contemplation on these themes. And it lacks any obvious intellectual-theoretical innovation. 

    Rather than enticing us with novelty, the novel rehashes the traditional artistic and academic depictions of death and dying that we have always found intriguing. Moreover, it is very much obsessed with Man’s death. It doesn’t matter that many female characters focalize chapters in the novel or that Knausgaard is convincing when offering their perspectives. The parts women play at the onset of the apocalypse are engulfed in the universal idea of human experience, following the template of neoliberal Enlightenment thinking about who and what comprises the Human, which Leonardo da Vinci’s Vitruvian Man emblematizes. Visions of the devil and the afterlife spring directly from a history of Man’s contemplations of the end times.  

    Reading the blurbs on the back of the novel, critics triumph Knaugaard for his ability to capture the depth of the quotidian, glossing over the deeply supernatural focus of this book. They praise Kanusgaard for keeping us rapt by life’s banalities as if this novel were another installment of his autofiction. 

    Zadie Smith notes: “Every detail is put down without apparent vanity or decoration, as if the writing and living are happening simultaneously.” Jeffery Eugenides calls the novel “experimental,” adding that it underlines “the sheer sense of how amazing it is to be alive, on this planet and no other.” James Wood claims that the author gives “voice to universal anxieties” and that his spotlight on the ordinary is “momentous . . . because it happens in the course of a life, and happens, in different forms, to everyone.”

     In other words, Knausgaard nails the universal human experience. However, to dispute Wood, he cannot master a form of universal storytelling and reveal how life “happens, in different forms,” to everyone at the same time. For Knausgaard, life seems to happen to various people in the same way, in the same place, at the same time. It’s hard to praise him for his diversity or for making the every day feel somehow new or extraordinary.  

    If the devil is in Knausgaard’s details, then the many characters who wipe their mouths with the backs of their hands after they have a “slurp” of beer and then leave to have a piss only contribute to a canned choreography that makes reality feel more like a simulation. Despite emphasizing the life of his characters by focusing on the impending doom of their deaths, Knausgaard creates characters that read like the undead, going through the same motions of ignorant, body-having mortality while unable to live meaningfully distinct lives.

    Nevertheless, like a bafflingly addictive Netflix series, I stayed immersed in the humdrum world Knausgaard created despite his killing off more than one cat in it. By the end, I felt led by temptation into the depths of a Knausgaardian netherworld, uncertain if I was more annoyed at him or myself for this folly. Maybe Knausgaard himself is like Lucifer, a bright light you can’t look away from, suspending you between your opposing desires for something new and surprising, and old and familiar.  

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  • My Embarrassing and Enduring Attraction to Taos, New Mexico

    My Embarrassing and Enduring Attraction to Taos, New Mexico

    The Big House, now the Mabel Dodge Luhan Hotel and Resort

    Before Christmas, I had the pleasure of spending a night at the Mabel Dodge Luhan House in Taos, New Mexico, and have written about it for Southwest Contemporary. Luhan was a writer and wealthy patron of the arts from upstate New York. She moved to Taos at the beginning of the 20th century, divorcing her third husband, who had lured her there, and marrying her fourth and final husband, Tony Lujan, from Taos Pueblo. Mabel and Tony spent the rest of their lives together in the “Big House,” the sprawling adobe structure they erected, which now exists as a three-star hotel and resort.

    You can find the article here.

    Taos Gorge Canyon Bridge with the dust spots on the lens of the camera I borrowed

    The article won’t tell you that I saw Santa Claus and Kit Carson serving hot cider outside of the Kit Carson Museum on Kit Carson Road. It also doesn’t mention that I was taking a photography class and was running around taking bad pictures with a rented DSLR Canon, including of the bighorn sheep crossing the hiking trails near the Rio Grande Gorge Bridge, which my grandfather helped engineer during his long stint working for the New Mexico highway department. I also made my partner pose among the white paint on white canvas in the white cube gallery space at the Harwood Museum, where the abstract expressionist work of Agnes Martin is on permanent display.

    My partner in the Agnes Martin room at the Harwood Museum

    Before retiring to the Nicolai Fechin room at the Luhan House, I went to a “Meet the Donkey” party in Talpa, a sort of artist-cowboy debutante ball for a Jerusalem donkey named Minister. Its owner uses Minister as a source of transportation, riding him down the busy Paseo Del Pueblo Sur to Smith’s grocery store.

    Minister with my partner and Minister’s owner in the background

    I also ran into old friends from Taos and met new ones, including a Palestinian woman from New York who finds herself in rural New Mexico learning about historical and enduring community irrigation systems—the same kind you see at the Georgia O’Keefe House in Abiquiu. This system fed her flourishing secret garden, which the Georgia O’Keefe Museum in Santa Fe maintains, fully restored to its former glory.

    There’s something to say about this Palestinian woman working on community water irrigation in relation to the water scarcity and the mass forced starvation of Palestinians in Gaza. But I’ll leave those dots hanging in the air for you to connect.

    Bighorn Sheep on the Western Rim of the gorge with more dust spots

    The next morning, at a long banquet table in the dining room of the Luhan House, I met an elderly woman who identified herself as a writer, proudly beaming that she was staying in Mabel’s room. Outlining her latest manuscript, a historical account of a 19th-century Virginian woman’s integration into the Swanee tribe, I nodded my head, affirming the fitness of her pursuits in relation to her affinity for Mabel.

    The Nicolai Fechin Room at the Luhan House

    Reluctantly, I admitted to her that I write as well. Instead of asking me what I write, however, she asked me about what I was reading. When I told her Second Place (2021) by Rachel Cusk, she raised her eyebrows in non-recognition.

    “It’s loosely based on Mabel and her memoir, Lorenzo In Taos–about D.H. Lawrence’s visit to this house in 1922,” I clarified.

    In her New Yorker review of Second Place, Rebecca Panovka rightfully criticizes Cusk’s simplified version of Lorenzo in Taos, which renders Tony an adopted child of uncertain ethnicity. By deracinating Tony, Cusk glosses over the complicated relationship Mabel and he shared. Mulling over the sudden rise of interest in a divisive figure like Luhan after the 2021 publications of Cusk’s novel and a new biography of D.H. Lawrence, Panovka bitingly concludes: “Not every forgotten woman is in need of a bio-pic.”

    What might be a picture of Tony Lujan in a book on display at the Harwood Museum

    Yet, when I visit Taos, immersing myself in its dramatic landscape, I find myself in a position similar to Luhan’s, wanting to establish roots here and build a creatively fulfilling life. While watching the sunsets over the mountains and hearing the grass rustle over uninterrupted prairies of undeveloped, Pueblo-protected land, no amount of rationality and education in social politics helps me see this place as anything but mystical and available to me, too.

    Returning to Taos always feels like returning home, and this desire to belong to a community that continues to grow and gentrify and push my artist friends to the brink of their ability to survive there makes me feel guilty. In my article, I write about this guilt, connected to the history of Western expansion and exploitative modernist art-making in the region.

    Mabel and Tony as found in a common area of the Luhan House

    However, in this piece, I also neglect to inform you that I lived in Taos from August 2017 to August 2018. Fleeing the East Coast, and, although I didn’t realize it at the time, also a long-term relationship and my life in academia, I joined my best friend, Damien Moreau, in Valdez on the outskirts of Taos, where he had secured a house to rent on a cliff in Gallina Canyon right next to the D.H. Lawrence Ranch.

    I’ve often referred to this year as a life highlight and consider Taos one of my favorite places to live. It’s complicated and bittersweet to admit as much, though. Damien was in a steep slide down into a depressive state that he couldn’t overcome. I watched his character radically change under the murderous magenta sunsets over a mesa dusted with minty sagebrush. In December 2019, he succumbed to his stubborn death wish. I’ve written a lot about his suicide in a secret blog that is formed as a series of missives to him. Maybe I gave you access, and you have read it. At any rate, Taos can never fully be home for me again because it no longer exists on the same dimensional plane as Damien.

    My friend, the artist Eli Walters, and my partner outside of the Luhan House before going to meet Minister. Walters lived with me briefly at the house on Gallina Canyon after Damien left to work in Denver. Later, I would follow Damien to Denver.

    Although I ceased writing to Damien directly, I still think of topics for these letters to him. I’ve, of course, been angry at him and dismissive of his sincere desire to leave this planet, thinking that he was stronger and could have endured it better than he thought. But with the pandemic, rise of authoritarianism, burning of the planet due to climate change, increased legal protections for narcissistic, comic-book-villain billionaires, and genocide in Gaza, I’m not so sure.

    Another photo of Minister

    This was not the introduction I intended to write for this article! But it is the one I have written. Although it has little to do with my essay’s contents, it feels right.

    Please find a very different exploration of Taos and its history in Southwest Contemporary here.

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